I am so unworthy..

I feel so inadequate and unworthy some days. I thank God for these days as I believe that I see His greatness all the better.

I was reminded how much of a blessing it was to have my husband's parents going to church with us. They get to spend that much more time with our kids. I see them growing in God and setting an example not only to my children, but, to the rest of our church. I also have an extra set of arms to pass a fussy baby to.

I try hard to not get up for every little squeak. I don't want my child thinking that fussing will get him/her taken out of a service to be walked around or even worse taken to play in the nursery. That is only rewarding them for their bad behavior.

We are at a time with Elsie that she not only knows she has a voice, but, wants to show it off and be the center of attention. She wants mommy to get up and walk around with her, play with her. I am struggling with a happy median. I have found with multiple children those small snacks to appease the baby soon bring in the scavengers.... And, of course, last night we had no sippy cup, no treats of any kind, and no toys.

I did have my hankie. I know that I have had this hankie for years and washed it quite a few times. But, I guess I really missed my grandma. It seemed to smell like she had just handed it to me.

My honey brought me home a Raspberry Mocha Brownie from the "coffee" place, a few days ago. It was such a surprise and sooooooo good.

School is going much better. As the rough patches get few and far between I can see them a little better and try to head them off before they get toooo bad. Some days I look up and have time to spare. Really no extra time, but I do get a little more done in other areas. I seem to do real well in one area and then others get bad.

A Fast

My husband and I had discussed fasting and praying toward our move. We truly feel that God would have us move, and are trying to patiently wait for Him to open the doors. He told the pastor of the church we are looking to move to and he invited people to join us in our fast. It makes me feel so unworthy to think someone would fast and pray for me.

OH how I have failed my "friends" in not praying for them and my family. I so calmly say, "I will pray for you." Then do I? It I was honest to I would say..... no....... I am working on that also. Prayer is so important, so "easy", can be done at anytime, YET how often I just don't.

We should have to wear "I have prayed for ____ minutes today." Well let's be honest it would be minutes. Then coming down from our button would be the list of people we prayed for that day.